Surrendering to the Universe Pt. 2 : Mother Earth
I had previously written about the experience of doing a past life regression and what that looked like for me at the time and moving forward. The past life regression was only a small piece of what I had experienced during my 4 day 4 night event. As some of you know, I have some interesting abilities to channel spirits as well as some other things like clairvoyance and telepathy and remote viewing. A year ago, I knew I had these abilities but I wasn’t quite sure how powerful they were or how to utilize any of these god given “skills” in my everyday life. This is what I set out to find during this “out of body experience.” My goal in doing this was to figure out what I was capable of, how to separate my own thoughts from those of others, and to take in any messages that the spirits wanted to give me. I don’t initiate this type of channeling often because it is incredibly mentally and physically taxing and can be very dangerous. I initiated it in December 2023 for the second time in my life ( first time in April 2023). I felt stuck and I needed answers so the only thing left to do was to totally let go and let the spirits and god take the wheel. In this blog post I will be doing my best to recollect what I had experienced during those 4 days.
At the beginning of this “quest” I was meeting an old coworker for dinner at one of my favorite spots close to me. She had a family member pass years prior and I felt this family member's presence heavily before leaving my house for the restaurant. I was so scared that I sat in my dry bath tub trying to muster up the courage to go. This family member also wanted me to pass a message to her about what had happened to them when they passed. When we were at dinner I told her this and she asked me if the spirits go inside of me to speak or if they stay outside of me. I told her that I wasn’t sure I just knew that there was a heavy presence and that was what he wanted me to tell her. After I left the restaurant I felt an even bigger spiritual presence with me than there was when I walked in, specifically a heavy military presence. On the drive home I was merging north on I 25 and there was a semi truck passing me at the same time. I sensed dozens to fifty human lives in the back of that truck and I wasn’t sure what to do. What was I supposed to do? Call the cops and say “hey I was driving and I got a sense that there are a ton of people on a semi-truck heading north on I25” with 0 evidence. I got home and started writing everything down.
After I got home another friend had reached out to me and her grandfather was dying. She asked me where his soul should reincarnate. I told her I wasn’t sure what the rules were and started asking questions. Does he have to come back as a human? Can he come back as a cat? What happened to Einstein when he died? Those were the types of questions I asked in regards to the concept of reincarnation. After that, my friend and I hung up and then I was taken for a ride. My past life regression began and like I mentioned in my previous post, I started to experience feelings of warfare. “If I am mother earth what do I need to know?” They showed me landmines, nuclear warfare, chemical warfare, and a lot of things as it relates to the holocaust and various wars, past and present around the globe. At the same time, I was remote viewing in Gaza and experienced some horrific things when it came to the hostages. Rape. I have a hard time talking about / thinking about that part of the experience as it is too traumatizing.
The two last things I had experienced was the feeling of dying in a gas chamber and drowning in the ocean. At one point I had asked the spirits to identify themselves by showing me how they died. On day 4 of 4 I was in the shower and I began to smell gas. I sat on the floor for 3 or 4 minutes and cried as this spirit showed me how she died in a gas chamber during the Holocaust . After I got out of the shower, I began to feel like I was at sea diving gasping for water. That spirit was in the Navy and died by drowning. I had at least 100 more of these “mini experiences” through these four days. A lot of military , a lot of family members, a lot of family members of friends all came to me during that time.
What did going through all of this accomplish? Well to start, any outstanding questions that I had had been answered and if they weren’t answered during those four days, they were clarified over the course of the year. This was an incredibly spiritual experience and it did force me to let go and trust something I couldn’t see . It also gave me a better sense of myself, my true character, nature, and my purpose on this planet. It also allowed me to face any fears that I had that were holding me back. Sleep wasn’t coming easy prior to this experience and I can say that the year of 2024 was the year where I got my best sleep; up and down with the sun. I still channel but not as often and when I do I do it for much shorter periods of time. The only thing I can’t do is move objects with my brain like Matilda… never say never ;)
